Title:  History in the Making
Author: Elf
Email:  Le Ellette@aol.com
Pairing:    none.  Janeway
Rating: G
Codes:  Kathryn Janeway, ramblings
Status: Complete
Feedback:   Yes, please.. good and bad (you can send either to my email
address instead of the list, if you want)
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Summary:    Kathryn Janeway's Ramblings on her wedding day.
Warning:    This story contains a romantic relationship between two women.
If  you don't like that kind of thing, this story isn't for you.
Disclaimer: Star Trek, Voyager, Kathryn Janeway, and any other canon
characters don't belong to me.  I only play with them. The situation belongs
to me, and the people who helped me.
Notes:  Thank you, AbyKitten, for encouraging me.  Thank you Boadicea12 for
beta'ing,  You really helped me make this totally different.. You can take
the other character as B'Elanna or Seven.. whichever you like better

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History in the making.  Chakotay said that to me today.  "You're a part of
history in the making."  What exactly *is* history?  I don't mean the
dictionary definitions, though there are plenty of them.  What is history
unless you make it history?  What is it to you? To my crew?  To me?  How does
one make history?

Is being stranded 75,000 light years from everything familiar considered
'history in the making?'  We didn't make those circumstances.  We're just
doing what we can to overcome them.  Is that what makes history?

Is becoming a couple considered 'history in the making?'  It doesn't really
matter to anyone except you and people close to you.  Unless you're someone
really important, such as a king or a queen, it won't be in the history
books.

Who decides what is worthy of being history?  My human history lessons have
shown me that wars are..  But why aren't all wars?  If the life of one person
is judged to be history worthy, why not the life of another?  Why not all
life?  Why aren't 'normal' people considered history worthy, the way that
royalty, nobility, and genius are?

I was married today.  Is that history worthy?  I know it is to me.   I know
it is to some of the people on Voyager.. But what about others?  It's not the
first interspecies marriage..  It's definitely not the first same sex
marriage.  I'm not the first captain to marry a member of the crew I command.
 It's not unusual in any regard, really, if you discount the fact that it
happened in the Delta Quadrant and the holographic Chief Medical Officer
performed it.  The Doctor was the only person I wanted to ask, since Chakotay
couldn't do it as he was my best man.  But I'll always remember it.  It's a
part of my History that I'll always cherish.  I know, a lot of things can go
wrong.  Just accounting the fact that we both have Senior positions on
Voyager says that, never mind taking into account our personalities.  But our
wedding day is the proof of our love for each other.  Anyone can say it..
This really shows it.  I know it's not going to be in any books, except maybe
Voyager's History, which everyone is writing.  Will it be in books when we
get back to the Alpha Quadrant?  Is the history taught in books and passed
down for generations any less important than the history we know - the events
that made us who we are?

There's a good chance that if...  than *when* we get home, Starfleet will
object.  Will their objections be more important to Kathryn Janeway, the
Captain, than my feelings as Kathryn Janeway, the Wife?  I hope not, but, to
be honest, I'm scared of that question.  Five years ago, I would have said
their objections would be more important than my feelings.  I'm not so sure
now.  What will I be like in the future?  What will any of us be like?  How
will our marriages, our kids, and our missions change us?  Which will history
find more important?  Who we are and what shaped us, or what we did trying to
get home?