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By DS Bauden

At last indeed. God, I hadn't felt this way in… well, I can't remember it'd been so long. Kelly crawled into my heart so quickly I didn't even have time to tack up that ‘Keep Out’ sign. Not that I would’ve.

You may be right. I don’t think I’ve ever felt this safe and right with any other person.

Oh, shit, really?

Looking into the bluest eyes in the world, I most definitely missed a question.

“I’m sorry, Kelly. What did you say?” I stuttered.

“I asked if you would like to sleep here tonight. I have a guest room that you are more than welcome to sleep in, unless you’d be more comfy at home.” She shyly asked.

She was absolutely beautiful. I can't feel my tongue.

“I… I would… um… “ I couldn’t believe I couldn’t form an answer.

“Hey, forget it, I was just wondering. I don’t want you to be uncomfortable in any way. I can take you home, Susan.” She almost looked like she had been slapped.

“Kelly, wait. I wasn’t going to say no. Really. I guess the offer kind of took me by surprise and I wasn’t expecting it. I didn’t mean to act like that.” I took her hand in mine as we headed back to the couch and turned the music down. We sat down and I kept her hand on my lap inside my own. “I’d rather stay here anyway. I’m sure your bed is gonna be much more comfy than my sleeper sofa.”

Her face blushed. “My bed?” She asked softly.

“Oh crap, I didn’t mean yours per se, I just meant…” I could feel my face getting hot and bright red with each passing second. “I just meant here, with you, or I mean in your house… Ugh!” I put my head in my hands. I was just going to be quiet for the rest of the night.

Her light chuckling made me look up into the most stunning face I’d ever seen. She had a smile that could brighten the dullest of days.

“My God, you're beautiful, Kelly. I know how often you’ve probably heard that in your life, but it’s the God’s honest truth.” I felt my hands sweating in my lap; I knew she could feel my nervousness as well.

“Yeah, I’ve heard that a time or two, but quite frankly, it never really mattered to me how people saw me. Not until now,” she paused to face me. “You make me care about how I look. I want to be this way for you. Who wouldn’t want to be beautiful for you?” Kelly asked sensually as she stroked my cheek with her knuckles.

My heart beat faster with each word and each stroke of her softness against my face. I dove into blue pools and before I knew it, our lips came together in a brush of tenderness. It was a short, chaste kiss, but what followed packed a whole lot more. We kissed again, this time more passionately and with an urgency that couldn’t be denied. Our tongues danced with their own private rhythm to music all their own.

As we parted I could see the smoldering desire in her eyes.

God, she was good at that. My lips were still tingling from the contact.

“Wow, that was… incredible,” she whispered in my ear. My body broke out into gooseflesh instantly.

“Yeah… it was,” I was very pleased to have formed a coherent sentence.

She nuzzled against my neck and tenderly kissed my jaw line.

“You don’t have to stay, if you don’t want,” she said again in a very low, sexy voice.

“I want,” I said in my own low tones. I wasn’t sure how much I wanted or even what in fact I did want; I just knew I wanted to stay here tonight.

"So do I," Kelly agreed as she continued her assault on my ears. My toes curled in response.

Our lips met again and with each passing moment, I could feel my body getting more and more out of control. My heart was racing faster than it ever had in my life. I wanted to possess her with my body. My hands wrapped around her waist and I pulled her harder into me. I felt her groan into my mouth and that sparked an intensely arousing wave in my belly that could've shaken all of China.

"Oh, Kelly…" I sighed. "You feel so incredible." I husked.

My body was on fire.

I felt her hands start to roam down my sides and I could feel her outlining the sides of my breasts. I arched into her touch instinctively. Our bodies shifted so that most of her was lying on top of me. She placed her arms just underneath my shoulders as I felt her leg slide in between my own.

"Ohh…" I gasped.

"Mmm," Kelly groaned into my ear as she began to slowly move against me. My legs involuntarily wrapped around her probing thigh.

I could feel my center throbbing from needing her there. Oh this was amazing! This was heaven! This was… too soon! I don't think I'm ready yet! Dammit! My thoughts were heavily racing through my head stealing all of my pleasure away. Damn them.

"Wait!" I gasped.

"Is everything alright, Susan?" The concern that I saw there was enough to melt my heart.

"I'm sorry, Kelly. As much as I want this with you, I don't think that I'm ready to jump right now… I'm so sorry," I looked away from her eyes. I couldn't bear to see the disappointment she was bound to show. I could feel the stinging of tears welling in my eyes.

"Hey…" she whispered as she slowly turned my head to face her. "Baby, if you're not ready, then we'll wait. I'm very pleased that you stopped me. I would never want to make love with someone unless they really wanted to. Especially with you, Susan. I know how much you've been through. I never want you to feel pressured by me, for anything. Especially this," she kissed me gently on the lips.

"Thank you, Kelly. You’re so wonderful to me. What did I ever do to deserve you?" I smiled into deep blue orbs.

"I should be the one asking that question," she smiled and started to raise her body off of me.

"Wait…" I exhaled as she stopped and looked at me confused. I swallowed nervously. "Can I have one more kiss?" I wasn't sure she'd want to. I hoped she wouldn't think I was just teasing her, but I needed to feel her again.

"You never have to ask that, Susan. I'll kiss you whenever you want," she smiled and slowly brought her lips down against mine in a soul searing, heart stopping kiss that took my breath away.

"Wow… I can't wait for stage two," I breathed out hearing Kelly chuckling as she sat up.

I sat up and ran my hands down my top to straighten it and I felt her breath in my ear. "I can guarantee it'll be worth waiting for," she whispered sending gooseflesh down my body.

You can say that again.

My heart was jumping by leaps and bounds just thinking about the contact we'd just shared. I couldn't believe what almost happened. In a way, the bad side of me really wanted it to happen. The grown up and more responsible and caring side was glad we stopped.

God how I wanted her.

I still want her.

Bad.

"Would you like some more wine?" I asked her trying to break the uncomfortable silence that hung between us.

"I'd better not," she looked up shyly at me. "How about some tea?" She suggested.

"Sure, I can do that. Besides, I think we still have some talking to do." I couldn't believe I'd just said that.

"Yeah, I was hoping you'd continue. I just didn't want to push anymore tonight," she smiled.

"Don't worry, this will give me something else to do with my mouth," I replied with a wink as I got up to go into the kitchen.

I heard her laughing at my retreating form and I took a deep cleansing breath as I entered the kitchen. I knew the rest of the evening wasn't going to be near as fun as what it could've been. What did my grandma always say to me?

I smiled at her words. I needed to call her. Her advice was so priceless.

“You want some green tea?” I shouted into the family room.

“Yeah, that’d be great,” I heard her respond.

I put the water on the stove to boil. Even though I had most amenities known to a kitchen, the teakettle should always make water for tea and the coffee maker should only heat water for coffee. Call me strange.

I wasn’t sure if I was ready to talk about the loss of my mom yet. That pain was still pretty raw. I knew that Susan would hear that story one day. I just wasn’t sure I wanted to go down that road tonight. I’d already spoken of Julie, which I really didn’t think would happen ever again, but there I was spouting away like there was no tomorrow.

Susan was so comforting and understanding about that whole situation. No wonder she can help people. She has the softest eyes telling you that you can trust her. It’s unavoidable, she’d listen and she’d care. She’d make you feel as if she were there with you through it all. That’s a heart you don’t find in many people. It’s a heart I hope to have one day soon.

Aw hell, who am I kidding? She already has mine. I just didn’t think that I’d give it to her so quickly.

Who knew that she’d have such an affect on me?

Yeah well, shoot me.

I sat and argued with myself until I heard the squealing of the teakettle. I put the kettle and cups with the tea on a tray and headed back into the family room.

“Here we are…” I stopped short when I looked down into the face of an angel.

Susan had drifted asleep on the couch with Matty happily curled below her. My heart couldn’t take much more in one evening. This woman had officially turned me into a marshmallow.

I didn’t care one bit.

I turned around and brought the tray back into the kitchen. I returned and decided that I should put my charge to bed. I didn’t want to wake her.

God she looked so at peace. I’m sure she didn’t always look like this while she slept. If she slept at all on the street, that is. I only pray that I can keep her face looking like it does right now.

Matty looked up at me and thumped her tail against the couch. “Hi sweetie. Did we wear out our guest?” I asked her as I scratched behind her ears. She rubbed harder against my hand and into the couch. She really thought she was a cat. I laughed at her actions and gave one final scratch before waking Susan.

I leaned down and brushed a few stray hairs out of her face. My fingers caressed her cheek and I felt her move into my touch. Even asleep she responded to me. She was truly a find. I guiltily continued my touches until I felt my own body announce its fatigue. I covered my mouth as a yawn escaped and cupped Susan’s cheek with my hand while attempting to wake her.

“Susan sweetheart, wake up. It’s time to go to bed,” I said softly.

Nothing.

Oh Boy.

“Susan? Wake up honey,” I said a little louder as I moved my fingers across her cheek tenderly.

She stirred and smiled into my touches.

“That’s it. Wake up, baby. I’ll put you to bed in a much softer place. I promise you’ll find it much more comfortable,” I continued.

“Mmm… I like it here. S’warm… “ She mumbled softly. Her eyes flickered then fully opened. Those beautiful brown eyes were staring at me. First they were uncertain of where they were and looked a little scared.

“Shhh… “ I tried to sooth her panicky eyes. “Hey sleepyhead. Let me show you to your room,”

“Oh Kelly, I’m so sorry. I can’t believe I fell asleep! I’m so embarrassed!” She said while rubbing her face with her hands.

“Hey, don’t worry about it. I told you, this couch has no shame.” I chuckled.

“You weren’t kidding. It totally sucked me in,” she smiled a sleepy grin and yawned.

“Well as comfy as this couch is, it doesn’t hold a candle to the bed. Come on, I’ll show you the way,” I lowered my hand for her to grasp. She took my hand and I guided her up onto her feet.

She stretched while I turned off the lights and the stereo.

“Are you sure it’s no trouble for me to stay here, Kelly?” Susan asked.

“I wouldn’t have offered if I didn’t want your company. Besides, it’ll be like a slumber party. God knows I haven’t had one of those in years!” I chuckled.

“Slumber party eh? Well the ones I went to always had all of us sleeping in the same room and laughing and talking until dawn,” she smiled in memory.

“We could do that if you wanted. I mean if you wanna share a bed with me,” I said watching for her reaction.

None came.

“Well, if you promise not to steal all the covers, you got yourself a deal,” she replied sleepily trying to stifle another yawn.

“Well from the looks of you, dawn is out of the question, but it’ll still be nice to sleep with you. Ahh…if… if you’re all right with that. I mean, I don’t want to scare you or make you uncomfortable. We’ve already talked about this, so I do mean sleep when I say ‘sleep with you’,” I reassured her. “I’d just really like to hold you tonight.” I confessed.

“I’d like that too, Kelly,” she admitted shyly. “Very much.”

“All right then. Let me get Matty outside one last time and I’ll show you where my room is. Okay?” I smiled.

“Sure thing,” she winked at me.

I let Matty out and she decided to cooperate for me for once. Nighttime is her time for mischief. I never expect her to come in until half the yard is dug up. I guess she figures I can’t see her in the dark. Luckily for me she did her business and made her way back to the backdoor without tearing up half the lawn.

“Good girl! You deserve a treat for that,” I commended as I walked to her cabinet and pulled out a treat.

She eagerly took the rawhide and trotted towards the stairs leading to my bedroom. She had a tendency to prance when she got a treat. She knew she’d done something right to get it and she’d be damned if she wasn’t going to show it off.

I took Susan’s hand and led her towards the stairs leading up to my room. We walked hand in hand and I never felt so content in my life. She was filling a gap that was so huge for so long. I don’t think I could ever convey to her how precious she had become to me. I don’t think I could find the right words.

We walked into my room and I watched as her eyes scanned the room with approving eyes.

“Kelly, this room is beautiful! God, my whole apartment is as big as your room!” Susan chuckled.

“I’m glad you like it. I hope… “ I looked at her and took both of her hands as I faced her. “I really hope you know that I didn’t bring you here to um… show off or to brag. I know you’ve had a hard time and…”

Susan placed her finger on my lips to stop my ramblings.

“Kelly, I know you’re not like that. I can tell. I’ve been around enough people that think their shit doesn’t stink, but believe me, they aren’t even in your league. You invited me here to see you, not your possessions. For that, I’m grateful, because I’ve had such a wonderful time tonight. I haven’t danced in ages. In forever I think. I think the last person I danced with was my father…” she paused as I heard her deeply sigh. “Anyway, thank you for starting to say what you did, even though it wasn’t necessary. You’re not a fake, Kelly. You’re an incredible woman and I’m really proud and honored that I can call you friend.”

I really didn’t know what to say. She was amazing! All I could do was inch closer and pull her into my arms. Our bodies fit together so well; it felt so right. I rested my chin on the top of her head and took a deep breath. Her hair smelled like sunshine. That analogy made me smile in reflex. I could only imagine one other person smelling like sunshine, and that was my mom. I wonder if she sent her to me.

My eyes had shed tears that I had no control over. I felt so vulnerable around Susan, but I’d never felt safer. I knew she’d never hurt me and I could trust her with anything or anyone. She heard me sniffle and slowly pulled out of my embrace.

“Kelly?” she looked up and noticed my tears. “Sweetheart, why are you crying?” She asked as she brushed away a few tears with her thumbs.

“I’m sorry, Susan. I was holding you and I um… smelled your hair. Your hair smelled like sunshine,” I smiled a watery smile. “My mom was the only other person that I can say that about. I guess it just sparked something inside of me and I was missing her. It happens every once in a while. She was the world to me.” I explained in almost a whisper.

“Oh sweetheart, I can totally understand that. Never apologize for missing your mom. And even though you haven’t told me much about her, I know that you loved her very much,” she pulled me against her again. “You can cry on my shoulder whenever you feel like it.”

“Thanks, Susan, I really appreciate that. I haven’t had anyone that I could share this with other than my grandmother. It’s nice to talk about my mom with someone else. I’d like to tell you more about her one day. I know she would’ve liked you a lot.”

“Do you see her often? Your grandma,” she asked.

“I see her every once in a while. We’ve kind of drifted apart. She and I used to talk a lot. She lost a lot too when mom died. Maybe it hurts her too much to see me, I honestly don’t know. I don’t like to push her. She’s such a sweet lady though. Funny as hell, too.” I smiled in memory of her quick humor and one-liners.

“Kelly? Can we continue this, there?” Susan pointed to my bed shyly. “I’m a little chilly,” she smiled.

“Yeah, sure. Let me get you something comfy to sleep in,” I smiled and walked over to my armoire and opened my pajama drawer.

I pulled out a pair of my flannel bottoms and a long sleeve T-shirt.

“Will you be warm enough in this, or do you want something else?”

“Oh, that’s fine. I may even be a little too warm in that, but let’s give it a shot,” she grinned.

“I have boxers too if you’d rather,” I offered.

“You know what? I like that idea better. I never could understand pants in bed. My sheets would always wrap around my clothed legs and I’d feel like I was trapped,” she grinned and shrugged. “Thanks.” Susan said as I handed her the clothing.

“Sure. The bathroom’s in there,” I pointed to the door. “And there are new toothbrushes in the cabinet. Feel free to use whichever color you feel like.” I offered.

“Again, thanks, Kelly. Your hospitality is absolutely wonderful,” she stood on her tiptoes and kissed my cheek before she sauntered into the bathroom to get ready for bed.

I grabbed another pair of boxer shorts and a short-sleeved T-shirt to wear to bed. I couldn’t wear anything too warm at night or I’d get nightmares. Who knew why this was, I just didn’t want to fuel my overly active dreamscapes. They were scary enough on their own.

*****

 

God this bathroom is three times the size as the powder room downstairs! I couldn’t believe my eyes. Kelly indeed had quite a house. This place was just incredible. The bathtub had whirlpool jets and looks like it could seat at least four. Wow, not even my parents had a tub like that one.

I opened the medicine cabinet and found several toothbrushes and indeed they were in different colors.

Have lots of overnight guests, Kelly?

I’m not jealous! Besides, she said she had quite a checkered past. I also believe she said that those days were over. Maybe she’s just planning ahead so she doesn’t have to rush out to buy a spare!

Oh, shut up, please?

I took the wrapper off the toothbrush and found some toothpaste. I looked at my reflection as I cleansed my teeth and I began to giggle at my appearance. Kelly’s clothes were at least three sizes too big for me, but they smelled like her, therefore, it was all good.

I spit the last of my toothpaste down the drain and wiped my mouth on the towel hanging on the rod next to the vanity. I felt my heart go out to the woman in the next room. She must’ve loved her mom a great deal. I wonder if she’ll tell me what happened?

For once, you’re right. Thank you. Now goodnight.

I walked out of the bathroom to find Kelly pulling up her boxers and smiling shyly at me. Her gaze burned my flesh as I felt her taking in my body.

“Wow, you look absolutely adorable. You look better in my clothes than I do.”

“Yeah, but I bet you look better out of them,” I felt my ears turn red after saying that out loud. I couldn’t believe I said that. I know my eyes looked like wide cartoon-like saucers.

Kelly’s chuckling was her only response as she walked closer to me. Her head leaned closer to mine and she whispered softly.

“I doubt that very much. But ohh… I can’t wait to find out who’s right,” she purred in my ears as she made her way into the bathroom. I felt her eyes on my back and I slowly turned around to see if I was right. I saw her wink at me with a smile before she closed the door.

She’s going to kill me. She’s definitely going to kill me.

“Whoa…” I breathed out. “This is gonna get more and more interesting, isn’t it Matty?” I whispered to the dog who was looking at me with the chewed rawhide sticking out of her mouth. Her tail thumped against the bed and then she went back to work on her treat.

“Thanks, Pal. You’ve been very insightful,” I snickered at the beast on the floor.

I heard the water running in the bathroom and decided to get into bed. I was starting to feel chilly again now that the heat flashes had died down a bit. I walked to the bathroom door and knocked quietly.

“Hey, Kelly? Which side do you sleep on?” I asked through the door.

“The right.” She mumbled through her toothpaste filled mouth.

“K, thanks.”

I walked to the left hand side of the bed and turned down the sheets and comforter. I climbed into the cool sheets and felt more at home in this bed than I did in the one at my own house. Her scent was everywhere and it was such a comfort to me. I decided that I liked that.

A lot.

I came out of the bathroom to find my guest snuggling into my blankets on my bed. It warmed my heart to see her in my bed. Not to mention other parts of my anatomy. She looked up at me and smiled. I couldn’t help but smile back.

“Comfortable?” I had to ask.

“Oh, Kelly, I can’t tell you the last time I’ve laid in a bed this comfy. It’s heaven. Thank you for asking me over,” she smiled at me sleepily.

“You’re welcome, darlin. I just didn’t want our night to end so soon. Even though the rest of our time will probably be spent sleeping, I just didn’t want to say good-bye just yet,” I confessed.

“I know what you mean. I’ve had such a good time tonight. Thank you again,” Susan said.

I rolled back the sheets and blankets on my side of the bed and got in. I wrestled playfully with Susan a bit for the covers, and then settled comfortably on my left side to look at her. She’d done the same onto her right side and we just stared at each other for many moments. It seemed like time was going so slowly. I took in every feature on her face, from the tiny freckles on her nose to the chicken pox scar right next to her right eye. At least it looked like a chicken pox scar.

I reached up and gently caressed her face in wonder of what this girl’s childhood was like. It had to have been so different from the life that she’s used to at present. I just couldn’t believe that someone’s parents would actually throw out one of their own because they didn’t agree with their sexual orientation. I was very lucky in that respect. My mom and I had a very close relationship and I knew I could tell her anything and everything. So when I came to her when I was fifteen and told her I didn’t think I liked boys “in that way” she just smiled at me with open arms and said “I love you, Kelly, no matter what.” She was really something.

“Hey, you alright?” Susan said startling me a bit.

My fingers continued to caress her and I outlined the small scar next to her eye. “Where’d you get this from?” I asked carefully.

“Chicken pox. Six years old.” Susan confirmed.

“That’s what I thought. I have a similar one next to my eye. See?” I said as I pointed to where I thought the scar was on my face.

“Wow, look at that. We’re twins,” she giggled.

“Oh, God, I hope not. What we did downstairs wouldn’t be too welcome in most families,” I joked.

“Ew, Kelly!” Susan laughed as she swatted my shoulder.

“I’m just kidding,” I laughed back and grasped her retreating hand interlacing our fingers.

I took a deep breath and looked up at Susan. Her eyes were incredible. They’ve seen so much more of this life than I ever hope to. They’ve seen places I’ve only heard horror stories about. I feel so incredibly blessed that I’d never had to go through any of the things that she has. I hope that I never do. I caressed the palm of her hand with my thumb.

“Something on your mind, Kelly?” Susan caught me staring and just smiled at me.

“Well, actually, I’m hoping that we can postpone the remainder of our ‘heart to heart’ for another day. I don’t know if I’m quite up to going into another story tonight,” I gave a small sad grin to my new friend.

“Oh honey, you don’t have to tell me anything if you don’t feel up to it. If you decide one day that you want to share that part of your life, then of course, I’ll be more than willing to listen. Please don’t feel pressured into telling me something you aren’t ready to share yet. I would hate that,” Susan held tight to my hand. “Let’s just take this slow. Let’s find a pace that we’re both happy with and go with it. No pressure?” She smiled in hope.

“No pressure,” I gladly agreed.

I squeezed her hand and relief instantly flooded my body. I guess I really wasn’t ready to reveal too much too soon. I just wanted her to feel that I’m willing to be an equal part in all of this. Whether it’s emotionally or not. God knows, I have some baggage that I carry around every day. I know she took a risk when she came out to dinner with me and especially last night when she shared so much of herself to almost a complete stranger, without batting an eye. I guess she feels the connection as much as I do. God knows I’ve never had it this strong with anyone before.

“Can we snuggle?” I asked in almost a childlike voice.

“Of course we can snuggle. I was hoping you’d want to,” she admitted.

I leaned onto my back and felt the bed shift as Susan rolled closer to me. Finally her head rested on my shoulder and her arm wrapped securely around my waist. My arm instinctively wrapped itself around her shoulders and held her close to me.

“This feels so nice,” I cooed and began rubbing her back.

“I have to agree. Your arms feel great around me,” she said as she snuggled impossibly closer to me.

I’d never felt more secure.

Or more cared for.

I can hear her heartbeat racing with every breath she takes. At least I’m not the only one who’s nervous. I hadn’t been in another person’s arms since Cindy. God it’s been a long time. This felt too good to be true. I don’t think I’d ever forget the sound of Kelly’s heartbeat. It’s so strong. I love the way that she holds me. Her hands rubbed my back so soothingly.

Quit that!

Well don’t!

Go away!

If I never heard my shadow’s voice again, it’d be too soon. If I could just get over my fears maybe she’d go away. Who knows?

“Susan?” Kelly whispered.

“Yeah?”

“Are you still sleepy?”

God she’s so cute.

“Yeah, I am. Being all cuddled up like this makes me feel so safe. I could stay here forever,” I said before I could stop myself.

Hell, who was I kidding? I didn’t want to stop myself. This was where I wanted to be. I’ll be damned before someone’s gonna take that from me again.

“I’m glad you’re comfortable,” she smiled into my hair. “I haven’t felt this good in a long time.” Kelly confessed to me.

“Mmm,” I murmured into her. “I know the feeling.”

“Good night, darlin’” Kelly said quietly.

“Sweet dreams, Kelly,” I said as I slowly looked up into dreamy blue eyes.

“You too,” she said as she leaned closer.

Her kiss was soft and warm and it tingled my body completely. I moaned unintentionally into her mouth. Her body coiled like a snake ready to pounce and she deepened the kiss. Our tongues met again and we tasted the fresh toothpaste between us. She was so good at this kissing thing. My body really wanted to sink into her fully. I felt my lips being nipped as our kiss slowly came to an end.

“Whoa,” I breathed.

“Yeah,” Kelly agreed.

“You are so good at that,” I smiled at her.

“I’m glad you think so. You’re quite gifted as well. My body thanks you too. It’s trying really hard to betray my head,” she giggled.

“I know the feeling,” I mumbled. “I’m sorry…” I started.

She placed her fingers across my pouting lips. “Shhh, don’t go there. I told you I’d gladly wait to make love with you. I just thought you’d like to know what my body thinks of you, too,” she smiled.

“It’s nice to know. It really is. It’s been so long since I’ve wanted anyone to feel these things for me. I’m so glad you do, Kelly. You are such an incredible woman. Thank you for approaching me yesterday. I don’t know if I would’ve had the nerve to have gone to you. It’s hard to tell what kinds of reactions people like me get,” I sadly said.

“God, it has to be so hard for you, honey. I’m so glad your friend brought you back from the street. Carol was her name, right?” Kelly asked.

“Yeah, she was the greatest woman I’ve ever known. She really brought me back to life. I was so dead inside. I never thought I’d make it back to reality. I thought the rest of my life was gonna be as it was in my own little world out there,” I sighed thinking back, thanking God I was warm, clothed, fed, and cared for.

“Susan?” Kelly started. “What are your plans for Christmas? I know I told you that I go to the movies, but I’d love some company this year. What do you think? It’s only five days away, and I thought we could spend it together,” Kelly bit her lip anticipating my response.

“Well, actually, I am heading a food drive for the shelter. We do it every year and it’s something I like to do. It reminds me of Carol now that she’s gone. It kind of brings me closer to her in a way. She did it for me and I really like giving some of that back,” I said proudly.

“You need any help?” Kelly asked.

“Are you serious?” I looked up at smiling eyes.

“Of course I am. I wouldn’t offer something like that if I wasn’t serious,” she explained unnecessarily.

“Kelly, I’d LOVE that!” I hugged her tightly. “You are an absolute Godsend! Thank you, you don’t know what this means to me,” I professed.

“I see your face shining like I’ve never seen before. I have a pretty good idea what it means to you. I also know what you mean to me. There isn’t much I wouldn’t do for you, Susan,” Kelly grinned shyly.

“Thank you, Kelly. Thank you so much,” I breathed into her chest.

Her arms held me firmly against her. I knew without a doubt, that Kelly Cavanaugh was going to make it impossible for me NOT to fall in love with her.

“You’re welcome, baby.”

“Kelly?”

“Hmm?”

“Can I ask you something?” I said quietly.

“Honey, you can ask me anything you want,” she reassured.

“Why don’t you have a Christmas tree?” I felt her giggle under me.

“Funny you should ask me that. I have an artificial one that I keep in my garage. I haven’t put it up yet, because I wasn’t sure I wanted to. I never really celebrate Christmas with anyone, so I guess I figured why bother?” she said matter of factly.

“Well, I’d love to help you decorate it,” I said a little too excited. “I haven’t decorated a tree in a long time. My parents always had a huge nine or ten foot tree in the living room. It was always so magical to me. Bing Crosby would be crooning in the background and we’d dress the tree as a family… God I miss that,” I sighed.

“You miss doing the tree?” She asked sounding a bit confused.

“No, well yes, but what I meant was, I miss having a family,” I said sadly.

“I can be a part of your family, Susan. All you have to do is say the word. I know what missing family is all about. My mom was my world,” Kelly began as she started running her fingers through my hair. “Even though it was just my mom, grandma, and myself, it was so special for me. I knew if I needed anything, they were there. If I was sick, my mom would take care of me. Even if I only needed a hug, she was there for me. And if I needed a good kick in the ass, they were both on me faster than lightening. Believe me, that happened way too much for my liking.” Kelly chuckled along with me.

“I bet you were something else when you were younger,” I giggled.

“You have no idea. I had so much energy when I was a child. My mom went to a preacher because she thought I might be possessed or something!” Kelly laughed.

“No way! Are you serious?” I was shocked.

“I’m very serious. She was a very religious person. She was a hard core Catholic woman up until the day she took her last breath,” Kelly said sadly. “God, she was a fighter.”

I didn’t want to push anything with Kelly about her mom. I knew she would tell me the whole story when she was ready. I would take these bits and pieces though. It made me believe that she was starting to trust me. That in itself was good enough for me.

“Anyway, I’d love to decorate the tree with you this year, Susan. It’ll be great fun, I think. It’s been awhile since I’ve had anyone other than Matty, to enjoy it with,” Kelly said wistfully.

“I’d love to, Kelly. Thanks for asking me,” I smiled.

“You’re welcome, honey,” Kelly reached back and clicked off her lamp, which rested on her night table.

The moon was shining through the windows as the wind blew outside.

God, I’m glad I’m in here. The memories of freezing my ass off aren’t far enough away yet. Kelly kissed the top of my head and settled down for a comfortable slumber.

“Night, baby,” she said into my hair.

“G’night, Kelly.” I turned my head and kissed her neck.

I snuggled deeper into my human pillow and let sleep take me, happily.

I felt movement under me and I started to wonder where I was. I heard Kelly moaning in her sleep and it started to get louder.

“No...” I heard Kelly whisper. “No...” she repeated.

“Kelly?” I hoped she wasn’t one of those people that couldn’t be woken from a nightmare. “Kelly, honey, it’s ok. I’m here with you. Everything’s fine.” I tried to soothe her back into reality. I held her close and caressed every body part I could reach.

Kelly jerked awake and clutched at me desperately. She was crying.

“Shhh, baby. I’ve got you.” I said as I rolled to my back taking her with me.

Kelly’s head rested on my chest and I could feel her tears soaking through the material of my shirt. I ran my fingers through her hair and lightly scratched her scalp.

“It’s ok now, sweetheart. No one can hurt you now.” I soothed into her hair.

I heard her sobbing quietly unsure if she was really awake or not. “Kelly? You want to talk about it?” I asked.

She just shook her head like a small child. My heart broke for her at that moment. It must have been about her mother. It’s obvious by her reaction to the dream. I held her closer and rocked her with all the will and strength that I had. I may not like my mother, but at least she hasn’t died. That I know of anyway. She was only seventeen I think she said when her mother died. It must have been cancer or something. I hated not knowing. At least I could try to help if I knew what I was talking about. This patience thing was truly virtuous.

I felt her sobs lessen with every deep breath she took. She raised her head and softly kissed my cheek.

“I’ll be right back. I just need to use the bathroom for a second,” Kelly said quietly.

“Are you going to be alright, honey?” My heart was truly breaking at the sound of her saddened voice.

“Yeah… I just um… I haven’t had a dream like that in a long time,” she sighed and got up off the bed and walked into the bathroom.

I heard the faucet turn on and the splashing of water. I could only assume she was rinsing off her face. I would just have to wait until she was ready to talk about it.

That was a bad one. I hadn’t had one of those dreams in a long time.

I rinsed my face off with cold water trying to shut out the images of my mother on her deathbed. The straining of her last breath would always be a visual I could’ve lived without. Although, being with her during her last moments on this Earth made it as good as it was going to be. I’m glad she didn’t die all alone. She didn’t deserve to go that way. When it comes to her dying, it was the only thing I was grateful for.

Poor Susan. I don’t think she was expecting our first night together to be quite like this. Hell, I had no intention of this happening. The peace that she gives me is just so reminiscent of my mom. It just brought it into my subconscious I guess.

I looked at my reflection and saw red puffy eyes staring back at me.

I will, but not tonight. I just don’t have it in me tonight.

I used the toilet and washed my hands and face one more time. I brushed my teeth again for good measure and went back towards my bedroom.

The light on my nightstand had been turned on and Susan and Matty were no where to be found. My heart was racing.

“Susan?” I called out to her.

“I’ll be right up!” I heard her shout from downstairs.

I heard the whistle of the tea kettle and it brought a smile to my face. She is really something. I don’t know what I did to deserver her, but I’m thankful.

Thanks Mom.

I heard the padding of several feet heading my way. I sat on my bed and was greeted by Matty and Susan, who was carrying a tray that had our tea from earlier tonight.

“Hey,” She smiled at me.

“Hey,” I smiled back.

“I thought you might want something warm to drink to try to help you fall back asleep. I saw that there was no caffeine in this so I made the tea you had brought out earlier. You think you could handle some?” Susan’s beautiful face lit up when I nodded my head.

She handed me a cup of tea with the tea bag’s string resting over the brim and onto the saucer. I bobbed the bag up and down until I got the water to my desired color and flavor. I pulled the bag from the cup and rested it on the saucer. I took my first small sip and felt the warmth of the liquid flow through my body, giving me solace.

“Thank you, Susan. This is exactly what I needed,” I said graciously.

“I’m glad. I know when I’ve had a bad dream or I can’t sleep that a nice cup of tea usually does the trick. I’m glad that’s the case with you, too,” Susan smiled into her cup.

“I’m so glad you’re here,” I quietly said. I reached for her hand and led her to the bed to sit next to me. “Thank you for being here.”

“There’s no place I’d rather be right now,” she smiled softly at me.

We drank our tea then sank into the warmth of the linens on my bed. I held Susan in my arms and breathed in her scent.

“Good night, Susan.” My voice was heavy with emotion.

She squeezed my mid section and kissed my clothed breast. “Sweet dreams, baby.”

I truly hoped my dreams were done for the night.

Christmas Eve had arrived before I knew what hit me. This time of year was always so damn busy. I never had time to do anything except work. All I did was check on the stock levels in each store, made sure each schedule had been made properly, and I’d call my managers to make sure they didn’t have any needs that hadn’t been met yet. Only two more weeks of this and it’s over and I can get back to my regular life.

With Susan.

Susan.

What a difference a name makes. I just hear that name and my face lights up regardless if it’s indeed my Susan that’s being thought about.

I guess you could say we’re dating now, right?

Don’t jinx it!

Don’t I know it.

The last couple of days had been kind of quiet though. I knew the reason and I’d hoped she wasn’t feeling left out. It’s impossible to get in touch with her since she has no phone. That just gives me a reason to see her everyday. I didn’t see her this morning though, I was running late. Perhaps, she was as well.

I am anxious to spend tonight with her. We are going to decorate the Christmas tree that has been laying dormant in my garage forever and a day. I can’t wait to watch her face light up when we turn it on for the first time. That was always my favorite part of tree trimming. You got to see the finished product: Tinsel glistening against the ornaments that reflect the light from the thousands of strings of lights you wrapped around the branches.

This was definitely going to be a night to remember.

Not like the weekend wasn’t wonderful. It was truly one of the best that I can remember. Even after I had the nightmares, Susan was so incredible. She has such a huge heart, I can’t imagine hurting her ever.

You’re right… I hope I never do.

God it’s freezing out here today. I cannot wait until I can stop with bucket detail. It’s not that I mind, I’m just frozen like a Popsicle. Only a few more weeks, then it’s paper work month. Oh joy. It’s better than being out here though.

Tonight is going to be so much fun. I haven’t decorated a tree in years. I hope I don’t break any of her family’s ornaments. I’d never forgive myself. I have dinner duty tonight. I’m going to make her spaghetti. It’s really the only thing that I can cook well. I know how to make anything from a box, but I wanted to cook Kelly a real dinner to celebrate our first Christmas together.

God she’s incredible. I’d not had a weekend like the last one we shared… well ever. She makes me feel so incredibly special and so beautiful. I’m the luckiest woman on the planet. I’m completely smitten with her, I forget my name while looking into her eyes. It’s an abyss I’ll fall into without hesitation… every time.

“Thanks ma’am, have a happy holiday!” I shivered.

I’m so glad her nightmares only hit that one time. I felt so bad for her. I knew she slept badly the rest of the night. I could feel her under me trying not to wake me with her restlessness. I’m quite a light sleeper so that didn’t work at all.

For either of us.

When morning came I wasn’t sure what to expect. Some people will hide in their shells when they think you’ve seen too much. Not Kelly, she was sweet and kind, even though I knew she was tired as all hell. I knew I was.

Saturday was spent just hanging out and watching movies. I could get used to watching movies like that. Her family room is a theater all it’s own! I could really get used to that way of living again.

Oh, now you don’t like Kelly?

I know that! Jesus! Go away! Kelly isn’t like everyone else!

No, you’re my fears trying to rebuild themselves again. Well, just stay out, because I haven’t got any room in here for you anymore!

Thank God my break’s coming soon. I need to put on a second pair of long-john’s.

I’m sitting in my office on Christmas Eve trying to put out every damn fire that my managers throw at me. I’m gonna kill them, I swear to God. Everything is NOT an emergency. I should be out on the sales floor today with our customers! I love that part of the job. Not stuck in here on my phone!

I’m almost done. One more call and I’ll go out there. Until the next page comes.

Ahh!

“Can I help the next guest in line, please?” Therese said with a smile.

A short, dark haired, unshaven man, dressed in black, walked up to the sales counter holding a fur coat then slamming it down on the counter.

“I WANT A NEW COAT! THIS ONE HAS A RIP IN IT AND I SPECIAL ORDERED IT FOR MY WIFE FOR CHRISTMAS! I DON’T HAVE ANOTHER THREE WEEKS EITHER, SO DON’T EVEN START WITH THAT!” He shouted loudly at the saleswoman.

“Sir, please calm down and I’ll help you as best as I can,” she tried to placate him.

“Don’t tell me to calm down! I waited three weeks for this coat and it’s fucking ripped! I want a new one and I want it NOW!” He exploded.

“Can I see your receipt, please?” Therese asked politely.

“HERE!” the man threw the receipt at the nonplussed woman.

“Sir, let me look this up on the computer and see if we have another one in stock. I’ll just be a moment,” she smiled.

“You’d better have one. This is bullshit!” He cursed again.

“Sir, I’ll ask you once again to please lower your voice. There are children nearby that don’t need to hear that,” she said calmly as she typed information into her computer.

“Whatever!” He said without care.

“Well, I’m sorry to tell you that we are out of stock on that item. I can look…” she stopped when she was interrupted by the man in front of her.

“I TOLD YOU I DIDN’T WANT TO HEAR IT! I WANT A NEW COAT FOR MY WIFE AND I WANT IT NOW!” He bellowed again.

“Sir, I can’t give you what I don’t have. I’m very sorry. I will call around to other stores…” her eyes went wide when she saw the knife in his hand.

“I’m not gonna tell you again. I want that coat for my wife and you’re gonna get me one or I’m gonna hurt you,” he snarled.

Kelly heard the shouting from her office and came out to see what the problem was. She saw the man holding a knife up to her employee and immediately ran to her aide. She raced behind the counter and tripped the silent alarm for security to come.

“Hi there, I’m Kelly. How can I help you today?” Kelly smiled innocently.

“Look! I bought this coat for my wife… I had to fucking order it and it’s ripped! I can’t give her that! I want a new one, but Miss High and Mighty back there won’t get me one, so I’m gonna take it out of her ass!”

“Now hold on a minute. You’re not going to hurt anyone. I will find you what you want. Just give me a chance to call some other stores….” She stopped when she saw the man grab the woman behind him and place the knife at her throat.

“I’m not waiting anymore. I want something done and so help me, I’m gonna get what I want!” he screamed into his victim’s ear.

The small woman in his grasp started crying desperately for help.

“Shut up, bitch! Not one more word, or I swear I’ll gut ya like a trout,” the deranged man hissed.

The frightened woman looked up at Kelly who was staring into her eyes trying to calm her. Kelly had seen the security guards approach and she quickly moved in front of the armed man.

“What are you fucking stupid? I should just kill your ass while I’m at it,” he said while taking a swipe at Kelly.

The security guards watched Kelly and made their move as the armed man lunged for her blindly. Kelly sidestepped the man’s attack and watched as the security guards jumped on him, disarmed and handcuffed his hands behind his back.

Kelly immediately went to the woman to make sure she was unharmed.

“Therese, call the police!” Kelly shouted.

“We already did. They should be here in a couple minutes,” the burly security officer explained.

“Good.” Kelly sighed. “Ma’am are you sure you’re okay?” Kelly wanted to make sure she was fine. “Is everyone okay?”

“I’m fine young lady. We all are thanks to you. That was either the bravest or the stupidest thing I’ve ever seen anyone do. He could’ve hurt you,” she said in an awed voice.

She continued to watch the security guards hold down the belligerent customer. He was straining for release to no avail.

“Nah, he was too upset to be accurate,” Kelly smirked at the woman. “I’m glad you’re alright, though. I’d never forgiven myself if something were to happen to any of you. Once you walk in through those doors, you’re all my responsibility,” she explained.

“You must be the manager here then?” the woman inquired.

“Actually, I’m the regional manager for this area. This just happens to be my base store where my office is located. I’m just glad I was here to help,” the blue-eyed woman said trying to downplay her heroics.

“You’re a hero, is what you are Miss… Kelly did you say your name was?”

“Yes ma’am, Kelly Cavanaugh,” Kelly said. “Please let me know if there’s anything I can do for you. I feel awful that this happened.”

“Don’t worry about it. Unlike a few people I could name, I’m not going to sue you or anything because of this. You’ve already done quite enough. You saved my life. No one’s ever done that for me before. Thank you, Kelly Cavanaugh.”

Kelly blushed at this woman’s outpouring, “You’re very welcome,” she smiled.

Kelly saw the police enter the building and rolled her eyes when she saw a camera crew for Channel Four News right behind them.

‘Oh Christ, here we go. Merry Fucking Christmas!’ Kelly thought to herself.

Susan watched as the police cars screeched around Lawrence Ave. towards Saks. Their sirens on each car were blaring loudly. She saw the Channel Four News truck right behind them. All of the vehicles went to the Saks building and stopped. Several people got out and ran inside the structure.

‘Jesus! What’s going on in there?’ Susan thought to herself as she felt her throat constrict.

“Oh my God! Kelly’s in there!” She shouted and grabbed her bucket and ran for her office.

Susan dropped the bucket off with the woman at the office and said she had to leave. The woman at the desk looked bewildered at the whirlwind that was Susan. She assigned another person to the post and waited for the explanation that she knew would come from the loyal employee.

“I’ve got to get to her,” Susan panted as she ran towards Saks. “I don’t know what I’d do if I lost her, too.”

Susan ran until she got to the front door. The police were bringing out a scary looking man, so she had to wait for them before she could enter. She frantically looked through the windows searching for any sign of Kelly inside. Her eyes were filled with tears and her heart was thumping rapidly in her chest. She turned to one of the officers on the site.

“Officer, I have to get in there. My partner works in there! I have to know if she’s alright,” she tried to say calmly.

“No one’s been hurt as far as I know, Ma’am,” the young officer said.

“Can I please go inside? I really have to find her. Please?” Susan pleaded.

“Let me make sure, you can go in,” the officer turned and spoke with what Susan suspected was his superior and he returned to her shortly. “He says it’s safe for you to go inside,” he smiled.

“Thank you!” Susan said excitedly.

She ran inside the doors of Saks and was beyond anxious to find Kelly. She ran towards the group of people with the camera crew.

“Kelly!” She cried.

She looked around and finally saw what she was looking for: A tall dark haired beauty that had climbed into her heart faster than the speed of light.

“Oh, Kelly!” She cried and ran towards her.

Kelly saw the teary eyed woman running for her as she was answering questions for the Channel Four News. She smiled and turned towards her as she felt the impact of Susan’s body against hers. She held the woman against her.

“Oh, Kelly, I was so worried!” Susan cried.

“Hey,” she soothed. “I’m fine, sweetheart, I promise.”

Susan held very tightly to Kelly until she was certain she was fine. “What happened? Why are the police in here? I saw them dragging out some scary looking dude. Did he do something?”

“Yeah, he was a bit unhappy with a gift he’d gotten for his wife and he snapped! It happens this time of year. Not usually so extreme, but still,” Kelly smiled.

“What did he do?” The brown-eyed woman asked.

“He pulled a knife on one of my customers,” she paused unsure if she should tell the whole story. “Then he um... tried to stab me,” Kelly said quietly hoping Susan wouldn’t freak out. The camera was still facing in their direction.

“What?” Susan cried. “Did you get hurt?” She asked again this time trying to take a full inventory of all Kelly’s parts.

“Susan! I’m fine. Please, believe me. Besides, I think we’ve given them quite enough news already,” she blushed at Susan who finally realized this was being captured for the world to see.

“Oh, screw them,” she said as she leaned up and kissed Kelly solidly on the mouth. “I’m just so glad you’re alright.”

Kelly laughed at Susan’s antics. “Me too, darlin’. Me too.” She brushed her fingers down Susan’s cheek. “Let’s get out of here. I’ve had enough of this for one Christmas Eve. What do you say? Can we start celebrating early?”

Susan couldn’t deny that hope filled face anymore than she could live without breathing. “Ok, let me just finish up at the office and let them know that I’m leaving. I have an emergency to take care of,” she winked. “Besides, we’ll be there most of the day tomorrow. They’ll be okay without me for a few hours.”

“Great, let me just grab my briefcase from my office and I’ll be ready.” Kelly said.

“Okay, come to the office and I’ll be there,” she smiled.

“Alright, sweetie, I’ll see you soon,” she promised.

“Kelly… I…Bye,” Susan stuttered as she waved.

“Bye,” Kelly answered as she watched her walk towards the exit.

“Miss Cavanaugh, who was that?” The journalist asked.

With a look of awe on her face as she stared at the retreating figure, “Only the most wonderful person who’s ever walked into my life. Are we finished?” Kelly asked now filled with anxiety to get out of there.

“Yes, thank you Miss Cavanaugh. Merry Christmas to you,” she smiled.

“Yeah, you too,” Kelly said absently and left towards her office.

“Wow, did you see that?” The cameraman asked the journalist.

“Oh yeah, a Christmas story for the new Millennium,” she smiled. “Tell me you got all of that,” she said firmly.

“All of it,” he said proudly.

“Good man.”

God, I’m so glad to be out of there. That was as close to being killed, as I’d like to come. I sure hope Susan’s all right. She had such a distressed look on her face when I first saw her. Aw, hell, I’d be just as upset if our roles were reversed.

Thank you. Yes it’s going to be great. I’ll keep that thought.

Wow, our first Christmas together.

I couldn’t believe I was sharing a holiday with someone this year. It’d been so lonely without my mom. My grandma came the first few years after my mom passed away, but I think it’s just too hard for her. I buried my mother; she buried her daughter. I’m a reminder of that I think. Hell, I don’t think I could bury my own child.

I pray I never do.

It’s always so hard for me this time of year though. In four days will be the anniversary of my mom’s death. At least I got one more Christmas from her before she left. It was always such a special time for us.

Sleigh bells ring

Are you listenin’?

In the lane

Snow is glistenin’.

A beautiful sight

We’re happy tonight

Walking in a winter wonderland

I traced the picture of the three of us with my fingers as I waited for Susan to change clothes. I kissed the photo and returned it to its place on the mantle of my fireplace.

“Penny for your thoughts,” Susan chimed startling me for a moment.

“They’re not worth that much, sometimes,” I said blankly.

“Honey, what’s wrong? Are you still reeling from today?” Susan asked tenderly.

“No, just feeling a bit sad I guess. I promised myself, I wasn’t going to feel that way this year, but it always hurts so damn much,” I said trying to swallow the emotions I could feel building.

I reached up and handed Susan the picture.

“Is this your mom?” She asked in a childlike voice.

“Yes, it was the last picture we’d taken together. Christmas Eve, eleven years ago. She died four days later,” I said gravely.

“Can I ask you what she died from?” Susan asked softly.

“ALS,” I answered stiffly.

I watched her brows furrow and I figured I should just get it out in the open. She deserved to know the truth. She’s earned that trust and then some.

“Thanks for showing me the picture. She was very beautiful, just like her daughter,” she handed the picture back to me.

“Thanks,” I said feeling the tears brim in my eyes.

“I think I have a good idea on why you don’t like to celebrate Christmas. I’m so sorry, Kelly,” she said as she looked so compassionately into my eyes.

That was all it took, I felt the floodgates open and suddenly Susan’s arms opened wide.

“C’mere,” Susan whispered.

I fell into her arms and began to cry. I hadn’t felt this out of control in years. It’d been over a decade since her death and I still had a hard time. I guess I always would.

After several moments I stood straighter and wiped my eyes.

“I’m sorry. This is supposed to be a fun night for us. Let’s start that fun, shall we?” I asked sniffling.

“Yes, let’s. I’ll get dinner started and you go turn on the tube or something until it’s ready,” she directed.

“Are you sure I can’t help?”

“You can help by eating everything on your plate. How’s that?” She smiled such a beautiful smile and I knew I couldn’t deny her.

“I’ll be in here until you call then,” I acquiesced.

“Good girl,” she winked and patted my behind as I turned towards the couch.

She smiled at me and walked towards my kitchen, where she stayed until dinner was ready.

God, how awful for her. I’d only heard bits and pieces about that illness. How does a seventeen year old girl watch her mother die like that? How does anyone watch someone they love die at all?

Jesus.

I turned my thoughts to my spaghetti. I needed to make the best damn pasta I’d ever made. I wanted this night to be special, more now than ever. I hope once we start trimming the tree, we’ll both fall into a fun rhythm and begin to make new and happier memories. I’ll do everything in my power to make this a special time for her again.

For both of us.

I found some eggnog at the grocery. God I haven’t had that in ages. I hope she likes it, too. I could get used to working in this kitchen. She has every amenity I’ve ever seen! I bet she’s used every appliance in here, too. They way she cooked last week, I’d bet my last dime on it.

“Ten more minutes!” I shouted into the family room.

“Thanks!” I heard her call back to me. I smiled in response and stirred my sauce a little more.

I took a spoonful into my mouth for a taste and hummed in pleasure. It’d been awhile since I’d cooked this for anyone. I think Carol was my last taker. She was such an amazing woman. I feel her presence with me every once and again. I know she’ll always be a part of me.

I wiped my eyes after my own memories flooded my brain, just in time to hear the bell on the stove ring. God she was special. If she didn’t find me, I shudder to think where I’d be right now. Certainly, not in here. And certainly not with the beautiful woman that’s waiting for me in the next room.

I’m feeling pretty darn lucky right now.

Thanks, Carol.

“Hey, Susan! Come quick! We’re on TV!” I heard Kelly shout.

I raced into the living room and saw the five o’clock news.

Kelly turned down the news as we looked in awe at each other.

“I can’t believe they showed me kissing you on national television!” I exclaimed.

“Me neither!” Kelly smiled. “You looked pretty good, I have to say,” Kelly smiled at me. I felt my face flush in embarrassment.

“Thank you. You’re not so bad yourself, Miss Hero,” I smiled.

“So, how’s dinner coming?” She changed the subject.

“A couple minutes and it should be done,” I smiled. I had so much energy all of a sudden from the news broadcast. “God, I want to call someone to see if they saw us on TV!” I shouted.

“Well, I’m sure plenty of people saw it. Besides, it had a happy ending. What better story can you tell on Christmas, right?” Kelly beamed.

She looked more beautiful to me at this moment than she ever had. I knew without a doubt, that Kelly and I had a future in our midst. A very happy and loving future. At this point I could’ve forgotten about the newscast. The world could ‘ve seen us for all I cared. I just wanted to spend Christmas with the woman that had stolen my heart.

“Let’s eat!” I exclaimed.

“I’m right behind you,” Kelly smiled.

*****

The TV was muted as a hand covered the agape mouth. Hazel eyes filled with tears as the realization hit like a ton of bricks.

“Oh my God… Susan…”

To Be Continued…

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