“Impulse: A sudden inclination or urge”
The American Heritage dictionary
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<span
style='font-family:Garamond'>Tori realized that Jenna was holding
her hand out for her to take and somehow she managed to respond, “Yes. I’m
Victoria Hull.” She let go of Jenna’s hand but never took her eyes off
Brett. <o:p></o:p></span>
<span
style='font-family:Garamond'><![if !supportEmptyParas]><![endif]><o:p></o:p></span>
<span
style='font-family:Garamond'>No… No… No… please
don’t let this be happening…This can’t be happening!</span><span
style='font-family:Garamond'>Tori was beside herself.<span style="mso-spacerun:
yes"></span>If she could have gathered the strength, she would
have died right there.<span
style="mso-spacerun: yes"></span>Tori
tried as hard as she could not to show how devastated she was.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes"></span>She
was paralyzed to speak and too numb to move, lost in the irony of the situation.<span style="mso-spacerun:
yes"></span><o:p></o:p></span>
<span
style='font-family:Garamond'><![if !supportEmptyParas]><![endif]><o:p></o:p></span>
<span
style='font-family:Garamond'>Over the years, Tori had explored a few
relationships learning more about herself. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes"></span>With the help of many loving and caring
partners, she had learned to accept the many facets of her sexuality.<span style="mso-spacerun:
yes"></span>She had come to understand her feelings for Brett
were natural.<span
style="mso-spacerun: yes"></span>She loved Cole and Erika
and had many feelings for her other lovers, but no one after all these years captured her
heart so completely as a young Brett had done.<span style="mso-spacerun:
yes"></span><o:p></o:p></span>
<span
style='font-family:Garamond'><![if !supportEmptyParas]><![endif]><o:p></o:p></span>
<span
style='font-family:Garamond'>Brett was now 21 and
<span
style='font-family:Garamond'><![if !supportEmptyParas]><![endif]><o:p></o:p></span>
<span
style='font-family:Garamond'>Why did I wait so long? If I had known
that she was capable of loving me the way that I wanted to love her, I would never had let
her get away.<o:p></o:p></span>
<span
style='font-family:Garamond'><![if !supportEmptyParas]><![endif]><o:p></o:p></span>
<span
style='font-family:Garamond'>Tori was so involved in her inner
dialogue that she didn’t notice that Brett was now standing in front of her. <o:p></o:p></span>
<span
style='font-family:Garamond'><![if !supportEmptyParas]><![endif]><o:p></o:p></span>
<span
style='font-family:Garamond'>“Tori, it’s so good to see
you. I’ve missed you, you big lug.”<span style="mso-spacerun: yes"></span>She
hit Tori across the stomach.<span
style="mso-spacerun: yes"></span>“Look at
you…You’ve gone and grown up and I must say you’ve really filled out
nicely. You heartbreaker.”<span
style="mso-spacerun: yes"></span><o:p></o:p></span>
<span
style='font-family:Garamond'><![if !supportEmptyParas]><![endif]><o:p></o:p></span>
<span
style='font-family:Garamond'>Tori snapped out of her daze the moment
she heard her angel’s voice.<span
style="mso-spacerun: yes"></span>As always, she could not
help but smile at the gleaming eyes that had always touched her heart. Yet something had
changed. She noticed that although Brett’s eyes still shined, they were a little
duller than they once were.<span
style="mso-spacerun: yes"></span>There was a hint of
sadness that now rested in them and it broke her heart to think that someone may have hurt
her little Brett.<span
style="mso-spacerun: yes"></span>Maybe it was you that
put that look in her eyes, you coward.<span
style="mso-spacerun: yes"></span>Because you didn’t
have the courage to tell her how you felt, you’ve lost her forever.<o:p></o:p></span>
<span
style='font-family:Garamond'><![if !supportEmptyParas]><![endif]><o:p></o:p></span>
<span
style='font-family:Garamond'>She wrapped Brett in her arms praying
with all her might that she would never have to let go. However, that just wasn’t
possible.<o:p></o:p></span>
<span
style='font-family:Garamond'><![if !supportEmptyParas]><![endif]><o:p></o:p></span>
<span
style='font-family:Garamond'>Lauren watched as a Greek tragedy
played before her eyes.<span
style="mso-spacerun: yes"></span>I’m sorry
Tori… I’m so sorry that I brought you here. What was I thinking?<span style="mso-spacerun:
yes"></span>That is just it. You weren’t.<span style="mso-spacerun:
yes"></span>Lauren chastised herself. You thought that if
the two of them saw each other everything would fall into place. But you forgot about
Jenna.<span style="mso-spacerun:
yes"></span>The pain in Tori’s eyes and the sadness
on her face was enough to break your heart. She now knew with absolute certainty that Tori
loved Brett more than life itself.<span
style="mso-spacerun: yes"></span>She knew that her sister
felt the same way. However, her sister’s greatest flaw and greatest strength was her
unwavering loyalty.<span
style="mso-spacerun: yes"></span>On the surface, she knew
that Jenna and Brett had looked happy. But for some reason something was missing. Lauren
could not put her finger on it until now.<span
style="mso-spacerun: yes"></span>Every time she saw
Brett, she seemed increasingly withdrawn.<span
style="mso-spacerun: yes"></span>She tried to get Brett
to talk to her but she always said everything was fine.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes"></span>She
prayed that someday Brett would come to her if something were bothering her.<span style="mso-spacerun:
yes"></span>Seeing Tori and Brett together was something
totally different. It was as if their souls embraced. You could not tell where one soul
began and the other ended. What was missing with Jenna was the incredible spark that
existed between Victoria and Brett.<span
style="mso-spacerun: yes"></span>When they were together,
they ignited the room.<span
style="mso-spacerun: yes"></span>The energy between them
was incredibly intense.<span
style="mso-spacerun: yes"></span>They defined chemistry.<o:p></o:p></span>
<span
style='font-family:Garamond'><![if !supportEmptyParas]><![endif]><o:p></o:p></span>
<span
style='font-family:Garamond'>Tori’s head bent down and she
whispered into Brett’s ear, “I might say the same for you little one. You are a
wonder to behold.”<span
style="mso-spacerun: yes"></span>Brett blushed and
quickly stepped away when she noticed the storm clouds brewing in Jenna’s eyes.<o:p></o:p></span>
<span
style='font-family:Garamond'><![if !supportEmptyParas]><![endif]><o:p></o:p></span>
<span
style='font-family:Garamond'>Brett motioned Jenna to come closer and
without her usual enthusiasm, she introduced Jenna again.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes"></span>“Tori
this is my girlfriend Jenna.<span
style="mso-spacerun: yes"></span>Jenna this is my dear
friend Tori.<span
style="mso-spacerun: yes"></span>I’m glad that the
two of you can finally meet.”<span
style="mso-spacerun: yes"></span>Brett stated this with
an enthusiasm that she didn’t truly feel.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes"></span>In
her heart, she wished Jenna’s and Tori’s roles were reversed.<o:p></o:p></span>
<span
style='font-family:Garamond'><![if !supportEmptyParas]><![endif]><o:p></o:p></span>
<span
style='font-family:Garamond'>
<span
style='font-family:Garamond'><![if !supportEmptyParas]><![endif]><o:p></o:p></span>
<span
style='font-family:Garamond'>“She is a very special person. I
wish both of you the best.”<span
style="mso-spacerun: yes"></span>She would put on a brave
front for Brett.<span
style="mso-spacerun: yes"></span>There would be time
enough for her to cry later and lick her wounds.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes"></span>With
a smile she did not feel,
<span
style='font-family:Garamond'><![if !supportEmptyParas]><![endif]><o:p></o:p></span>
<span
style='font-family:Garamond'>Jenna released her hand and then took
Brett in here arms.<span
style="mso-spacerun: yes"></span>Before Brett could stop
her,<span style="mso-spacerun:
yes"></span>Jenna kissed her with uncomfortable force.<span style="mso-spacerun:
yes"></span>Finally letting go of a bewildered Brett, she
replied,<span
style="mso-spacerun: yes"></span>“Yes she is. And I
don’t plan on ever letting her go,” <span style="mso-spacerun: yes"></span>clearly
marking her territory.<o:p></o:p></span>
<span
style='font-family:Garamond'><![if !supportEmptyParas]><![endif]><o:p></o:p></span>
<span
style='font-family:Garamond'>If
</span>You do not have a right to do that.<span style="mso-spacerun:
yes"></span>You gave all rights up when you walked away and
left Brett, remember?
Jenna thought.<o:p></o:p></span>
<span
style='font-family:Garamond'><![if !supportEmptyParas]><![endif]><o:p></o:p></span>
<span
style='font-family:Garamond'>“I’m glad to hear that.<span style="mso-spacerun:
yes"></span>Brett deserves all the happiness she can get.
Well…., let me go say hello to
<span
style='font-family:Garamond'><span style="mso-spacerun: yes"></span><o:p></o:p></span>
<span
style='font-family:Garamond'>
<span
style='font-family:Garamond'><![if !supportEmptyParas]><![endif]><o:p></o:p></span>
<span
style='font-family:Garamond'>She went over to
<span
style='font-family:Garamond'><![if !supportEmptyParas]><![endif]><o:p></o:p></span>
<span
style='font-family:Garamond'>Soon after, Alexi came running out of
the kitchen proclaiming that it was time to get the party started.<o:p></o:p></span>
<span
style='font-family:Garamond'><![if !supportEmptyParas]><![endif]><o:p></o:p></span>
<span
style='font-family:Garamond'>Funny I’m not in a party kind of
mood. </span><span
style='font-family:Garamond'>Tori thought as she found herself in her own
personal hell.<o:p></o:p></span>
TO BE
CONTINUED. Installment
Four